Friday, November 16, 2012

Psalm 103: 1-2

"Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits—" Psalm 103:1-2 (NIV)

I love lyrics.  I can hear a song and the music can be complete genius, but I want to know the words.  Several months back, my Cindymom told me about a song.  It was called 10,000 Reasons by Matt Redman.  It's now become my kinda "give myself a kick in the pants and thank God no matter what I'm feeling" theme song.  We've had some rough times.  Not only is there this WAIT hanging over our heads, but we lost a great furbaby, our oven broke, our microwave door broke, etc...  There's more, but I'll spare you the pity party.  It's so easy for me to wrap those thoughts around myself and let them take over.  As I type this out, I'm hoping for the phone to ring.  If there's going to be news today, we'll know pretty soon.  If not, there's a whole weekend of the not-knowing ahead of us and more of the WAIT.  This is the month of Thanksgiving and as Christians we are to give thanks in all situations even when we don't feel like it. Sometimes I think I have to make myself walk out what my heart isn't feeling. The thing is, no matter what today looks like there really are at least 10,000 Reasons for my heart to find.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Oh, and by the way, my Ryan turned 17 last month

Well, I've been meaning to post this one for a little while now.  My oldest is on the brink of adulthood.  It's so bittersweet.  I am happy--really, but I'm a little sad, too.  I could so hang on forever.  I'm so proud of the man he's becoming.  One of my friends (since the 3rd grade!) asked me the other day what Ryan's plans were for after High School.  I wrote back, "Ummm...Ryan's never leaving home."  I even forwarded her part of the song that I'm putting down below. Teehee, yes I'll let him go and I'll be his biggest fan, but I sometimes wish we could just freeze time. This letting go thing is so much harder than I expected---and I expected it to be hard.  Now, however, it's upon us and I don't even really want to think about it.  So, on that note, I'll post a picture that Josh (one of my 14 year-olds) took and the lyrics to a song by Michael W Smith.

I like this picture.  It's missing his smile, but I like that Josh is on the other side of the
lens and you can see his artistic side.  He was working on the rule of thirds and backgrounds and Ryan's just standing there waiting.  Funny how a picture really can tell a whole story.
Fly to the Moon
Fly to the moon
Well, you could do it if you wanted to
Try flying high
The only limit is the endless sky
So, go on and fly to the moon

Live in the sun
You know your living has just begun
So much ahead
Don't let the night leave you for dead
So, come on, live in the sun

Fly to the moon
And when you find your wings I will celebrate with you
Watch you as you soar
Take the wishes that are yours
And let them fly you to the moon

Dream on a star
You can let it take you near or far
Feet on the ground
Don't let anybody hold you down
So, go on and dream on a star

Fly to the moon
And when you find your wings
I will celebrate with you
Watch you as you soar
Take the wishes that are yours
I know you can fly to the moon
You can do all things
I will celebrate with you
It's hard to let you go
Still, you have to go,
I know

So go on, fly to the moon
And as you spread your wings
I will celebrate with you
Hope we taught you good
Hope you know that if I could
I would fly away with you

I would fly away with you
I would fly away with you
I would fly away with you
I would fly away with you
I would fly away with you

Gotta take it all the way
When you follow dreams
Follow far
Flying high and away
You're flying all the way
To the moon

Friday, November 9, 2012

I know it's GREEN, but what else is about it?

About a month or so ago, a friend introduced me to these Kid History videos on Youtube.  They are my new favorite entertainment.  We all walk around quoting things from them.  Anyway, life's been a little serious around here lately and I needed a good belly laugh, so I thought you might enjoy a belly laugh, too.  Don't you love that God made us capable of having so many emotions and that joy and laughter are actually good for you? 


Thursday, November 8, 2012

Upside-down headband cutie

It's been a full year since we first saw her picture.  A friend of mine forwarded me a photolisting of some waiting children at an orphanage in Taiwan.  There were 2 precious little girls with Down Syndrome on that list as well as several others and we began to pray about both of the girls.  If you have followed my blog from the beginning, you already know this story.  Anyway, over the course of a few months, we began to answer a series of questions from that orphanage.  Time went on and we still didn't know which little girl we would pursue an adoption of.  I would walk around our backyard and pray and cry.  I didn't want to be wrong and I didn't want to not choose one.  In the middle of December last year, I emailed a question about both girls and our caseworker wrote back, "Not your child."  In that moment I knew who our child was.  I turned around to tell Kyle, "It's Ling!"  I knew her.  She was meant to be ours.  It's an amazing thing to have everything click right into place and to know you've been looking at the face of your next child.

Here's the first picture we saw of her.  I called her the upside-down headband cutie
for a few months. :)  The girl can rock the upside-side down headband, no?

This is one of our most recent pictures.  She's grown a smidge from that first picture. 
Why do all kids seem to do that whether you want them to or not?  

Monday, November 5, 2012

Waiting, waiting, waiting...

a·dopt (a-dopt)
tr.v. a·dopt·ed, a·dopt·ing, a·dopts
To take into one's family through legal means and raise as one's own child.
a·dop'tion  proc·ess 1 (pros'es, pro'ses) n. A series of actions, changes, or functions hopefully bringing about a finalized adoption that will involve multiple persons and organizations knowing every single thing about you.  It will probably be the biggest series of ups and downs you've ever experienced and you may be subjected to long waits leading into even longer waits.  You will check your email continually hoping for some news or some update.  Your arms may begin to feel empty and when you count your other children you keep coming up short---someone's missing.  Part of your heart seems to be in two different places all at once.  The question "when?" will be asked more times than you can count and you wish, I mean really wish, you had an answer. *sigh*
Okay, my adoption process definition is a little raw.  I'm really missing Avalyn today.  I can't really explain how I can miss someone I've only seen pictures of, read about, and met on Skype, but I do.  We're missing a little someone a great big bunch. 
So, all of that to say that we have no real update.  We're trapped somewhere in the Final Decree part waiting, waiting, waiting...
Isaiah 40:31
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.